FRIENDS OF FRIENDS

today i had lunch with friends of friends, very casual, we ate at a bread garden.

they are VERY nice people, and it’s all me, ALL ME.

im USUALLY pretty good at making new friends, instigating conversations, making everyone feel at ease. For the most part, but today, it went horribly horribly wrong.

When I arrived late (i was being flakey) everyone had already gotten their drinks, so I grabbed my wallet and went to buy a drink, oh yes I remembered, I HAVE TO PAY WITH CASH since of the recent fraud and what not on my credit card. I’m so unstylish with cash, a wad of bills I am okay with, but coins? coins drive me crazy.

The lady at the counter looked at me funny while I decided what I wanted, I am a slow decider, especially when it comes to drinks and food, and I RARELY go to a new restaurant unless i’m feeling particularly adventurous that day. It slows down my whole day, and more than likely, new places disappoint. I ended up choosing freshly squeezed orange juice, lovely! Paid with my awkward canadian coins and went to sit down.

everyone chatted while I sat there drinking my juice, like i was 5.

suddenly, everything halted and it was suddenly time to get food, im out of cash and my friend had to pay for me, yes i only had enough money for juice. I got a grilled chicken sandwich this time. the lovely people were attempting to make conversation with me, but I dont know why but today i just buckled down and ate, and ate and ate some more, while of course, drinking my juice.

at the end of my sandwich, i got up and thanked everyone for lunch and left.

soon after i went to the washroom and washed my hands, noticing that yes, there are spinach on my teeth, so not only was i not charming, i was not charming with spinach. i stared at myself in the mirror with horror, but what can i do, it’s over and so I took the bus home.

i’m definitely not one of those people that impress the shoes off of you, but i’m not boring either. i don’t smell bad (occasionally i smell like gucci !) and i have some interesting stories to tell. But, being awkward in front of friends of friends? that’s something i always manage to do.

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“did i just read about someones awkward lunch experience?”

why yes you did, to make you not hate me i’ve provided the link to the marc jacobs & louis vuitton documentary on youtube!

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part 1 is here and you can find the following part in ‘related video’s or on the sidebar :D it’s such a cute and whimsical documentary! there’s a lot of un-subtitled french but we all know we need to practice in case we bump into uncle Karl one day.

STILL WINTER


THE PRETENDERS – BREAK UP THE CONCRETE

IT’S SO DAMN COLDDD HEREEEE! IRONIC HOW THE SNOW STARTED TO FALL AFTER THE OLYMPICS!

ack..

but on a lighter note, i ordered sunglasses! how adventurous of me! I went to a very high-end department store the other day and tried on a lot of sunglasses, i don’t want to buy anything too gaudy, so all the chanels and guccis are out! But ironically, I ended up deciding to buy Wayfarers, the most recognized sunglasses of our generation.

GASP! $$190 + 12% tax..

honey, it’s just plastic isn’t it!?

But i reallly want them, so I do what any smart shopper would do, I buy them online! I immediately went on amazon.com to search for raybans (yeah i seriously buy everything off of amazon these days) , I found a lot of really great prices! But, there are sizes?? It’s not easy to find a good pair of sunglasses and now there are size issues??

the following week, I went to a local unnamed glasses store and tried on many pairs of sunglasses until I determined the size, i’m sorry that i’m singlehandedly bringing down physical retail. But it’s so much cheaper online! Oh wells, they’re corporate, they can handle it.

Ended up paying $130 USD, wooooooot :D

that wasn’t a very exciting entry…

i think it’s because i concentrated too hard on my assignment about spandrels and evolution. it sucked all the wit and sarcasm out of me..

i just wanted to share how cold it is right now, so please feel sorry for me.

but at least i was finally able to put these gloves to good use!

WHITE POWDER


Linkin Park – In Between

I was on my way to the bus station. Despite everything I felt pretty good. I wasn’t skipping down the sidewalk or anything, but I liked some things about myself and I didn’t wan to die. It was the closest I’d been to optimistic in years. — Apathy and Other Small Victories by Paul Neilan

Second half of the book felt like it was written drunk, it felt a bit rushed and some what inconsistent with the beginnings. Timeline felt a bit more warped than usual, but it’s weird and funny. The type of funny isn’t as LOL as some other books you might have read. But as you read, you’ll stop and chuckle and return to reading. It’s not that easy to put down, so time-block a bit for this one. Oh lots of vulgarity, which I like very much.

In the book there’s a what is described as -sadistic corporate climber- woman. After reading about her and her behaviors, it’s what we are suppose to aspire to. Obviously not everyone wants to be a corporate exec, but these goal oriented, let-not-one-day pass life style that we lead is somewhat unhealthy. and it’s ironic since i just posted an entry about time-blocking on my other blog!

let’s hope that my kind of ‘doing-well’ is different, because right now i’m not really sure there could be a difference.

let’s hope that my kind of ‘doing-well’ is different, because right now i’m not really sure there could be a difference.

wikipedia described this book as a “possibly part of a trend of novels focusing on directionless people of an unusually young age for such restlessness”

won’t it be ironic if young people HAD directions? But i’m also rooting for direction-less anti-heros, who find people that got it together interesting? isn’t it the raw human emotions of struggle much more beautiful? okay i’ll shut up now…! It was also cute how he focused on cubicle-hate, that’s so early 2000 late 1990s! We don’t work in cubicles anymore, we suffer in open spaces with 20 year olds as our CEOs, not making money but getting to attend the Grammys. Oh wait, I work for GAP, i’m just going to take this battery pack and smack it over my head now.

I sincerely hope I get to be a 20-something thats making it and getting there with my innovation and love for the environment, I’m 21 and i think it’s too damn late.

Also Paul writes a blog, which wikipedia described as ‘regularly upating’, his last entry dated 2008… it’s..not 2008 anymore. And the kicker is he uses typepad, innovation, you gota love it.

OH YEAH, my biggest impression of the book, he writes like he’s British, the whole time i felt like i was reading a book from across the pond, but it’s from America, he writes like he’s British. quite mind blowing actually..

what a random entry, new hair cut after the cut

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OK NOW WHAT


SPOON / is love forever? live version because i can’t find a non-live version

please listen to the songs? while reading the entry? i think i picked it to fit the mood, maybe – also readership is at a ridiculous decline, pftt, see if i care…! (i do but in happier news, one more subscriber!)

im trying to maintain the artistic integrity of the blog by posting pictures of stuff that i own around the house. i was going to write a speech about how maintained and roughed my leather jacket has become and the amount of history that i now have with this jacket. And because of its existence, i have grown and gained so much.

but it’s not, i just wear it a lot. Also i haven’t been doing anything exciting, i’m eagerly waiting for my dragonette concert so i have something to blog about.

well, i have been watching the new season of project runway, it’s so damn awesome, i stopped watching for a while after the season with Christinan siriano simply because no one was as fierce and everyone bored me! But this season, i have a huge crush on Jonothan from PROVIDENCE! He’s kind of geeky and lame and carries a purse, yeah, damn but mostly it’s because he’s hilarious, kind of reminds me of someone that no longer talks to me…

so yeah, if you subscribe my blog to your RSS feed (which i highly recommend) you would have gotten a stupid surprise. i totally forgot that even if i delete an entry here it still shows up in feed, since i self-subscribe, i realized this.

don’t be alarmed, i was in a weird friday afternoon mood and i just HAPPEN to write about relationships, as a result of this other blog i’m reading. I think writing about relationships will get readership, everyone ‘s relationship is fucked up in some way or other so we want to read about more convoluted relationships to self-assure. i got it in the bag this is a generalization of course

yesterday i also felt like i should take more artsy pics of myself in various outfits so i’d have a stock of photos so i don’t have to do so much editing and picture taking every time i blog, it didnt work out, the pics sucked, i trashed them.

life is kind of fucked up right now, i’m in a weird place, im a child yet i am not. well i mostly am, problem solved i guess. I also really need a hair cut, a real hair cut this time! so i have some pics of styles that i like, again to not ruin the artistic integrity of the entry, i’m going to put it after cut, give me some opinionsssss

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HAVEN’T MET YOU YET (OR MAYBE I HAVE)

THAT’S MY FACE WHEN IM ATTEMPTING TO READ THIS GRAPH / CHART

SWEET, I KNEW THEY’D COME BACK, BUT WHO KNEW SO SOON? AND APPARENTLY THERE REALLY IS A BAND CALLED RAVENETTE

obsessed with this song, have been on repeat for a very very long time too, but more more importantly, the supermarket in the video is only a few blocks away from my house and i can’t believe i never knew they shot a video here!

i like the lyrics, cute, real cute, but from what we learned in class, romanticism is a DISEASE! because it gives you hallucinations about the ‘perfect one’.

if you’ll excuse me, i’m gonna take a dose of reality now

(LOVE)

not one to believe in love, but i dont disagree with its existence, a cute video i just found on youtube and a song im in love with.

TIM HANAEUR – DREAM A BETTER WAY

but seriously? this guy’s SMOOOOTH // sorry i think i just ruined a moment

THE MONGOOSE WILL DANCE

CURRENTLY CRAMMING FOR MY EXAM TOMORROW BUT I LIKE THIS STORY AND I LIKE THIS PICTURE, TAKING A SHORT (PROCRASTINATE-IVE NATURE) BREAK

there was once a Brahman named godly in a certain town. His wife mothered a single son and a mungoose. And she loved little ones, she cared for the mungoose also like a son, giving him milk from her breast, and salves, and baths, and so on. but she did not trust him, for she thought: “a mungoose is a nasty kind of creature. He might hurt my boy.” Yes, there is a sense in the proverb:
A son will ever bring delight
though bent on folly, passion, and spite
though shabby, naughty, and a fright
One day she tucked her son in bed, took a water-jar, and said to her husband “now professor, I am going for water, you must protect the boy from the mungoose.” But when she was gone, the Brahman went off somewhere by himself to beg for food, leaving the house empty. While he was gone, a black snake issued from his hole and, as fate would have it,crawled toward the baby’s cradle. But the mungoose, feeling him to be a natural enemy, and fearing for the life of his baby brother, fell upon the vicious serpent halfway, joined battled with him, tore him to bits, and tossed the pieces far and wide. Then, delighted with his own heroism, he ran, blood trickling from his mouth, to meet the mother; for he wished to show what he had done. But when the mother saw him coming, saw his bloody mouth and his excitement, she feared that the villain must have eaten her babyboy, and without thinking twice, she angrily dropped the water-jar upon him, which killed him the moment that it struck. there she left him without a second though, and hurried home, where she found the baby safe and sound, and near the cradle a great black snake, torn to bits. then, overwhelmed with sorrow because she had thoughtlessly killed her benefactor, her son, she beat her head and breast. At this moment, the Brahman came home with a dish of rice gruel which he had got from someone in his begging tour, and saw his wife bitterly lamenting her son, the mungoose. “Greedy! Greedy!” she cried. “Because you did not do as I told you, you must now taste the bitterness of a son’s death, the fruit of your own wickedness. Yes this is what happens to those blinded by greed.”

Stuart Blackburn / his essay The Brahman and the Mongoose

honestly though, the first thought that came to mind when the animal Mongoose is mentioned is this…

What a mysterious creature…

AND HOLDING MY HEAD UP, HOLDING MY HEAD UP


Delphic – Counterpoint

wanted to wear this rosary to school today, but i never know if it’s okay to wear a piece of jewelry that has religious affiliation when i, myself am not affiliated.

I had dinner with my friend last night, we’re both in a weird place right now. And it’s funny how the things we tell each other are exactly the same, yet we fail to apply the same wisdom and logic to ourselves! I guess, more than often a problem will go away if you just let it settle, or look at it from someone else’s eyes.

it’ll become blindingly obvious

i also realized that no matter what someone else does to you, you probably shouldn’t treat them badly or talk badly of them just because, you feel like they deserve it. I shouldn’t talk, im a basher, i like to bash people, but i think i’m going to stop, or try to stop. no one deserves to be talked badly about, no matter what they did to you. the most you can do is remove them from your life, and be smrt, SMRT!

everything is circumstantial.


p.s. posed for Rebecca today, i like saying the word photoshoot, it sounds AWESOME and it makes me sound cooler for just saying it, or having any relations to that word. of course, i suck at posing, the pictures came out good because you can’t see my face, that’s what usually ruins photos, my face. maybe she’ll post some pics from today’s shoot, HA

i dont know why i thought i could be a model, a model’s life is not for non-models! that made sense…

NOTHING TO TYPE BUT THIS

I HAVEN’T HAD SUCH BAD WRITERS BLOCK FOR A LONG TIME NOW

I WRITE A LOT OF “DRAFTS” THAT NEVER GET PUBLISHED

BECAUSE AFTER A NIGHT’S SLEEP, THESE SMALL PROBLEMS AREN’T REALLY PROBLEMS ANYMORE

THIS HAS BEEN THE MENTALITY THAT GOT ME THROUGH THIS YEAR

I AM OKAY

I CAN’T HAVE PEOPLE GET ME DOWN

BECAUSE I NEVER LET MYSELF DOWN

I KNOW I DESERVE BETTER

AND WHEN I WALK AWAY I WONT FEEL SAD

IT’S TIME FOR ME TO TAKE MY BITE OF THE WORLD

BECAUSE HERE I COME

AND NOTHING’S STOPPING ME

SOMETIMES THIS IS ALL IT TAKES

VIA STAPLE DESIGN